real raw kitchen: Catching up ...

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Catching up ...

Oh hello lovely people.. How have you been? Fabulous, I hope. And what about me? Well if you've been following this blog at all then you might have noticed I've been awfully quiet for quite some time. I had big plans for this blog (and several product reviews waiting to make an appearance) but life happens.

And what about life, anyway? Well, lots of things have been moving and changing for me. It's been a rough couple of months, trying to say the least, and so my priorities shifted from fun and food to let's-survive-to-the-next-day. I'm happy to announce that I've survived, I'm alive and well, though my ego is a bit bruised. It happens and I'm not very fond of these past few months but I firmly believe that awful experiences are one of the most unifying things in the human race, in a sad yet beautiful sort of way. We all experience tragedy, sadness, heartache, disappointment, and pain and so even though we are all very different we all at least know these experiences. It's not something I'd like to connect with others over, but it's humbling and has expanded my capacity for love and compassion immensely, and for that, I'm grateful.

So what have I been up to? 

Well, lots of juice and lots of self-care. 

Green juice and orange juice seem to be the only things that really appeal to me lately. Every once in awhile I get an appetite for potatoes and so I gorge on them while my appetite lasts. Otherwise, I've been sticking to my juice.




I've also upgraded my bedding into something light and airy and while that seems awfully trivial it is actually something I'm very proud of. I look forward to my bed every night and I enjoy awaking each morning because my sheets are just so me


I've been taking some time off from Life, lately, and retreating to places where I'm loved. There is nothing in the world so isolating and diminishing to the human spirit than to feel that you are unloved, and likewise, there is nothing so rebuilding to the human spirit than finding a community or family that loves you deeply and unconditionally. The latest trip I made was to Arizona where I met up with my mother and grandmother and I spent time healing and laughing with the two women that love me most in this world. I also took quite a bit of time for myself, as well, by hiking the red rocks of Arizona. It was a grueling experience since there are no mountains I could have trained on here in Miami, but it was so worth it. Like everything in life, the pain endured only shows you the amazing views and capabilities you have on the other side. And boy, the views were amazing.


It's also almost mango season here in Miami so I'm just beyond thrilled. Mangoes are my favorite food in the entire world and even with my lack of appetite I've had for the past few months I can still find myself enjoying the sweet nectar of a perfectly ripe mango. So lately I've been incorporating them into my days. Either a bowl of mango or blended with some OJ. Whatever, I don't care how it happens, mangoes are amazing.



Along the theme of Self-Care I've been spending as much time as possible outside. The only thing to do outside, that's enjoyable, here in Miami is go to the beach so whenever I get a chance I make the trek to the beach (which, to clarify, unlike what the media will have you believe, Miami is not, in fact, on the beach. Most of Miami is 30 minutes away from the beach, on a good day, and only a small strip of Miami is on the beach and that is actually an entirely different city called Miami Beach ... get it?) I now have a nice racer-back tan from wearing my tanks and sports bras outside. I've found myself walking for hours and miles and miles, just sorting through this thing called Life and contemplating all of my greatest moments. The sun does magically wonderful things for me and so it's been a welcomed experience.



I haven't made much food and so I have really had nothing to post about, here. I've also stayed away from this blog because I tend to prefer a happier tone in my posts and I just have been unable to find that voice lately. I figured it's best to heal my voice and my insides before I try to stress over something that should really be stress-relieving

What I have found is that I've adopted the 801010 lifestyle, once again, and it's been great for my energy and my body. It's extremely easy for me to digest 801010 foods so I stick to those ratios while I try to build my appetite back up. Until then, dry-roasted potatoes and orange juice seems to be on the menu for quite some time to come!




All caught up? Good. I have a few more trips on the books where I will travel back home to the warm embrace of California and loving friends. Thank God. It feels damn good to be loved and though I tend to view myself as a trail blazer and an independently adventurous woman for moving across the country for the sake of "something new" I am finding that it is just so important to also make sure you still have a home or support system to fall back on in these new places (or to pick a place that is capable of providing that). And when you don't, then damn .. it's rough, I tell ya. So heading back home is exactly what my soul needs and I have a feeling my head will be on a little bit straighter when I return.

When I return, I'm hoping to get some recipes going in my kitchen again, and then, up here as well. Wish me luck .. I love you all. Thanks for understanding :)

xo


10 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear that you've been in a bad place but it sounds like you're doing all the right things to heal. Giving yourself time, space, love and nourishment!
    Sending big hugs xoxo

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    1. Thank you so much, I can feel your hugs :)

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  2. I hear you. We've recently been through a pretty devastating experience, and I am with you. I have zero appetite and the only thing that seems to appeal is juices and smoothies. Though I made roasted beets with honey, balsamic and ground pepper the other day, and that was actually pretty awesome. Maybe you should try that! ; ) Seasons of self-care are so needed and so good. Take Care.

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    1. Ooohh that does sound delicious! I'll have to try that, for sure.. and I like that term, "seasons of self-care". That seems appropriate and is a good reminder that sometimes that's just what life calls for :) I'm sorry you are experiencing your own tragedy and hope with lots of juice and roasted beets you find yourself healing quickly!

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  3. I just wanting to send lots of love and positive thoughts out to you. Hope you feel better soon.
    I am always encouraged reading you blog and this is no different. Thank you, feel better soon. Deborah

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    1. Oh thank you so much Deborah, what sweet things to say! I'm so happy to have you here :)

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  4. Glad that you're taking care of yourself and doing what you can to make yourself feel better. Thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way!

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    1. Ah thank you Amanda :) I can feel the positive vibes and they are a wonderful feeling!

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  5. I was so sorry to read you'd been having a hard time- but happy that you were able to share some of your experience. Hard stuff is, well, hard, and that's why we have other people, our community, so we can help lift each other up! <3 I've been loving your blog since I first found it a little over a year ago, and I was right in Miami Springs at the time, too. I went through quite a rough patch myself this past year (since then) and stopped reading and interacting with just about everything that really brightened and empowered my life and fueled my passions, so I really identified with your experience as you shared here. Major props to you for being able to get to the "self-care" stage from a difficult place (it can be HARD!) and then share that with your readers. I hope you continue to feel on the up and up, but I did really appreciate reading your perspective and experience. I look forward to whatever comes next!

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  6. Oh my goodness Shayna you really put a smile on my face today. I'm so happy to have you here! I am beginning to believe that one of the major factors of being an adult is experiencing an immense amount of pain, the kind that humbles you so much that you can't help but be compassionate towards others from that point forward. You know? So I guess that's where I'm at :) I'm hoping to get some recipes up and running again, but still .. just so damn difficult to focus right now. But I am so enjoying reading through your comments!! :) Oh I love you Shayna!

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